Mynameiswot’s Weblog

What a weird day it has been today… Sitting here having a beer after working hard all day, and being let down by someone yet again who promises the earth and delivers nothing but broken promises.

Been a rough couple of days, mentally screwed up, can’t pull out of it, and just know the “Big Bang” is due to hit home.

All the daft things around me that could go wrong are going wrong, but I’m resigned to this happening so it’s not fazing me out too much. Not much point getting even worse when you cannot change anything anyway! So if you look back over the months of writing on here, you can see how the crap has continued, but the same mentality of trying is still there. You just need to believe and keep trying… I know I am!!!

Another day…

And no matter what you do it certainly will not wait for anyone, especially you!!!

So, how have things been going recently? Pretty crap and pretty standard, but pretty normal really for me and the way my life always goes!

Back in training, still drinking, but still aiming to get off it and increase my energy levels and get a 10K run done before a half marathon near the end of the year!

Talk about high hopes!! But it’s a target and that is what it’s all about!

Monday is the new day to start laying off the drink once again….

Sad, but, it’s a case of still keeping on trying!

I think, I ponder, I wonder….

I think… I am unhappy…. I become worse…

Happiness is so far, yet the positive is so close….

Unhappiness is now, negativity is with me…

Eternal change is with me, now and forever….

Well it’s not long to go (3 hours or so) and we will be in 2008. Up till the changeover I am still having some wine, eating a wee bit extra than I should. Tomorrow morning the whole change begins!

It will make interesting reading on what other people are trying to change in their life this year, but also how many will give up quite quickly and promise to do the same again in 2009…

While this may appear quite sad, remember, as long as you keep trying, who knows, you may actually succeed!

Best wishes to everyone for their new 2008!