Mynameiswot’s Weblog

Monday is the new day to start laying off the drink once again….

Sad, but, it’s a case of still keeping on trying!

I think, I ponder, I wonder….

I think… I am unhappy…. I become worse…

Happiness is so far, yet the positive is so close….

Unhappiness is now, negativity is with me…

Eternal change is with me, now and forever….

Through the day I had received a telephone call from a women I know, someone who was a client but now someone who I treat as a friend of sorts. It’s hard to explain, but I liker her, and in turn understand her, and in turn I like to help here when I can, but that’s it. Nothing sexual (I’m married) nor anything in the attraction state, but when I see how happy she can be when simple things are sorted out for her, it makes “ME” feel happy as well! More so when the question of “HOW MUCH” is asked I would never dream of taking any money for my “TIME”.

I did a few hours work with her tonight, left with a few bottles of wine, but feeling really happy that I had made someone else happy, and to be honest, in my mind that’s what life in general is all about. Help others and in turn hopefully they will help you out when you need them.

An interesting thing happened last night…. Well if you are that way inclined to believe in things like this, I guess it was!

After I posted last night, I decided to write a short article on GOD.

I wrote it all out, it covered all the points I thought would be interesting in as much as I do not believe in the entity, and then my laptop decided it would not publish to my blog!

Now, I can see some people already writing in and saying “See” you decided to go against the big man and looked what happened!” and yet I know that all that happened was the laptop decided at that point to screw up in some way and Word would not function correctly. Why is it we have to spend so much wasted time in things like religion and the likes of a “GOD” when out time on earth is limited, and we should use that time to enjoy ourselves, look after others and stop wasting our time reading the likes of man made and man written crap like the bible that exists to just control people.

Now, that last paragraph… how many people would get upset by someone saying what they believe? When people get brainwashed into believing in religion they really are showing the world they have lost the ability to think for themselves, and they have allowed others to control their lives and also their monetary position to a certain degree. Donations… you have to laugh.

Be true to yourself, be true to others around you and live your life in a way that will help others.

Pretty simple, but no need to kill others to prove a point if they do not agree.

Why is it I can never write about happy thing? Mind you, when you read other people’s blogs etc they too all seem dam depressing as well!

It’s clear; we all appear to be an unhappy crew online, moaning and bleating, but then again, some of us know why we do so!

At the moment, I’m still drinking, though slowing down slowly and enjoying the stuff I have. I am still mentally getting myself off the stuff but I am annoyed that due to the dam cold still in my system, I cannot do any running or Gym work at all. I feel like I am growing fatter and fatter, when in fact I am still well under 11 stone!

So why am I online writing this nonsense? Well, to try and take my mind of other things that are getting to me and stuff I can’t be bothered writing about as it would only bore anyone who read it to death.

The one thing I do know is this! I should be a lottery winner, not a poor wannabe…